Monday, October 06, 2008
to a non-specific boy- personal monologue
Dear heart,
look i'm really sorry about lying to you, cheating on you, ignoring your calls, avoiding you in public, rolling my eyes when you told me how you felt about me, blah blah blah... all that crap i put you through. you were the last person i ever wanted to hurt. you're a really good person and you don't deserve how i treated you but... you let me. you know i still love you, baby.
ok i'm lying again. my bad! maybe i'm not really that sorry. do you realize how irritating you became the moment we got together?! all you wanted to do was use up all my free time! i mean, i liked hanging out with you in the beginning but then you made it feel like being with you was a CHORE! i can't stand needy people and that's what you became! i AM sorry you found out the way you did but i just didn't want to hear your whining anymore. i'm sorry i called you a bitch when you cried all those times but after the third time seeing you cry in a week, YEAH, it got old. i was heartless, i know, but at least i wasn't a fucking little girl about it. i'm sorry you're not the one for me and i'm sorry i was too chicken-shit to let you know. here's a piece of advice from someone who has some experience in... well, you: grow some balls and get a life. maybe you'll meet someone who won't walk all over you after all.
look i'm really sorry about lying to you, cheating on you, ignoring your calls, avoiding you in public, rolling my eyes when you told me how you felt about me, blah blah blah... all that crap i put you through. you were the last person i ever wanted to hurt. you're a really good person and you don't deserve how i treated you but... you let me. you know i still love you, baby.
ok i'm lying again. my bad! maybe i'm not really that sorry. do you realize how irritating you became the moment we got together?! all you wanted to do was use up all my free time! i mean, i liked hanging out with you in the beginning but then you made it feel like being with you was a CHORE! i can't stand needy people and that's what you became! i AM sorry you found out the way you did but i just didn't want to hear your whining anymore. i'm sorry i called you a bitch when you cried all those times but after the third time seeing you cry in a week, YEAH, it got old. i was heartless, i know, but at least i wasn't a fucking little girl about it. i'm sorry you're not the one for me and i'm sorry i was too chicken-shit to let you know. here's a piece of advice from someone who has some experience in... well, you: grow some balls and get a life. maybe you'll meet someone who won't walk all over you after all.
this heart of mine was broken at 5:47:00 PM
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