Friday, August 22, 2008
MIA
Dear heart,
it's been months since i've written you. nothing is going right anymore. i don't have a job, i failed all my classes last semester, i gained all my weight back and then some, and to top it all off- i'm back at my parents house WITH james. now that would have been fine but the past few nights he's slept here, he's different. he used to hold me when we'd go to bed. now he just rolls over. i don't understand it and it hurts. i want to say something to him but i know he'll just say he's tired. i guess i've wanted to shut out all parts of my life because i knew no one would really understand what i was going through. but james seemed to. he just loved me so much. now i can't help but wonder if he's disgusted of how fat i've become and he's just faking it so he can stay here.
it's been months since i've written you. nothing is going right anymore. i don't have a job, i failed all my classes last semester, i gained all my weight back and then some, and to top it all off- i'm back at my parents house WITH james. now that would have been fine but the past few nights he's slept here, he's different. he used to hold me when we'd go to bed. now he just rolls over. i don't understand it and it hurts. i want to say something to him but i know he'll just say he's tired. i guess i've wanted to shut out all parts of my life because i knew no one would really understand what i was going through. but james seemed to. he just loved me so much. now i can't help but wonder if he's disgusted of how fat i've become and he's just faking it so he can stay here.
this heart of mine was broken at 12:43:00 AM
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