Tuesday, March 11, 2008
wanna know a secret?
Dear heart,
"you're the sweetest guy i've ever met."
- jenna from 13 going on 30
he really is. he wanted to play basketball today. while he went downstairs to get me some porkchops before we leave, i pretend to fall asleep. i like to do that for some reason. when he comes back in, he's being really quiet and i wonder why he hasn't woken me to get up yet. suddenly i feel him taking off my shoes, trying to move my legs to the bed and when i refused that, he carries me to the pillows and gives me the blanket. i pretended i didn't know what he was doing but that was the sweetest thing to do. i wasn't even awake to acknowledge his good deed and he still did it anyway. just the way he always leans over to kiss me, i love it.
we went to the beach today and i was kinda jealous when he was staring at some chick bend over. we wrestled which was fun and he held me upside down. then we spent the rest of the time laying out as he lay over me and we talked. we love to do that. we walked on the beach too but the water was cold so he refused to go in. we were walking to the bathroom and he said something like "i don't know if we're both dorks or i'm cool but i like dorks." it was funny. i pretend like i was shocked by his comment and tried to attack him prostesting that i, in fact, was the cool one.
he misses his daughter and i wish i could help him in some way so he doesn't hafto without leaving me out of the picture. daughter-time means no-joanne-time. like i want him to see her but that would mean his absence in my life. no long talks, no kisses, no sweet words, no holding him, no him. i'm selfish.
"you're the sweetest guy i've ever met."
- jenna from 13 going on 30
he really is. he wanted to play basketball today. while he went downstairs to get me some porkchops before we leave, i pretend to fall asleep. i like to do that for some reason. when he comes back in, he's being really quiet and i wonder why he hasn't woken me to get up yet. suddenly i feel him taking off my shoes, trying to move my legs to the bed and when i refused that, he carries me to the pillows and gives me the blanket. i pretended i didn't know what he was doing but that was the sweetest thing to do. i wasn't even awake to acknowledge his good deed and he still did it anyway. just the way he always leans over to kiss me, i love it.
we went to the beach today and i was kinda jealous when he was staring at some chick bend over. we wrestled which was fun and he held me upside down. then we spent the rest of the time laying out as he lay over me and we talked. we love to do that. we walked on the beach too but the water was cold so he refused to go in. we were walking to the bathroom and he said something like "i don't know if we're both dorks or i'm cool but i like dorks." it was funny. i pretend like i was shocked by his comment and tried to attack him prostesting that i, in fact, was the cool one.
he misses his daughter and i wish i could help him in some way so he doesn't hafto without leaving me out of the picture. daughter-time means no-joanne-time. like i want him to see her but that would mean his absence in my life. no long talks, no kisses, no sweet words, no holding him, no him. i'm selfish.
this heart of mine was broken at 1:14:00 AM
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