Friday, March 07, 2008
oh no
Dear heart,
Dear heart,
james calls me around 8:30 in the morning, which is always a nice way to wake up, and asked if i was interested in hanging out with him and his mom tonight. i said yes and that would have been fine and dandy and all but now he's not picking up his phone. i know he does this every few months but i hope he's not doing this now...
and it turns out- he is.
i am probably over-reacting. he has probably smoked too much weed and fallen asleep. it happens. or he might have "helped" the lady who got beat up last night and as a "thank you" had sex with him and he stayed with her as a courtesy. hey, i'm creative and it's not necessarily that far from possibility. i mean, he did call me his "female friend" to her when he offered to meet her at the courtyard but he'd bring me along.
i'm trying not to trip about the whole thing. i have sent the following messages. i hope it does not scare him away into never talking to me again:
7:03 are we still hanging out with your mom? did you get the info? if not, do you still wanna do something anyway? let me know.
8:05 oh no! are we not hanging out after all? i really don't wanna stay home tonight. can you text me if this isn't going to happen so i can at least catch a movie with anty or my sis? i'd feel bad if i did something else after i said i'd go with you guys without hearing from you so let me know. it's cool if you found something else to do cuz i'll see you tomorrow. text or call me soon please
8:33 most of the time you make me so happy but sometimes you can make me sad... like now. i'll see you tomorrow? call me
i feel pathetic and sad. i should just sleep and get over this. hope i hear from him tomorrow. if not, i can always be over it.
Dear heart,
james calls me around 8:30 in the morning, which is always a nice way to wake up, and asked if i was interested in hanging out with him and his mom tonight. i said yes and that would have been fine and dandy and all but now he's not picking up his phone. i know he does this every few months but i hope he's not doing this now...
and it turns out- he is.
i am probably over-reacting. he has probably smoked too much weed and fallen asleep. it happens. or he might have "helped" the lady who got beat up last night and as a "thank you" had sex with him and he stayed with her as a courtesy. hey, i'm creative and it's not necessarily that far from possibility. i mean, he did call me his "female friend" to her when he offered to meet her at the courtyard but he'd bring me along.
i'm trying not to trip about the whole thing. i have sent the following messages. i hope it does not scare him away into never talking to me again:
7:03 are we still hanging out with your mom? did you get the info? if not, do you still wanna do something anyway? let me know.
8:05 oh no! are we not hanging out after all? i really don't wanna stay home tonight. can you text me if this isn't going to happen so i can at least catch a movie with anty or my sis? i'd feel bad if i did something else after i said i'd go with you guys without hearing from you so let me know. it's cool if you found something else to do cuz i'll see you tomorrow. text or call me soon please
8:33 most of the time you make me so happy but sometimes you can make me sad... like now. i'll see you tomorrow? call me
i feel pathetic and sad. i should just sleep and get over this. hope i hear from him tomorrow. if not, i can always be over it.
this heart of mine was broken at 7:43:00 PM
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