Thursday, March 13, 2008

i know no one cares

Dear heart,

all i have are these happy stories of james. i can't talk about it really because it seems so boring and only for my enjoyment. we watched vantage point last night. we were all comfy in the seats, we kiss before entering the theater together, he gave me a piggy back ride down the stairs, and he thought i looked nice today but forgot to tell me. i guess he had a lot of fun at the beach because he even said he doesn't really like to go to the beach if he's not surfing but according to him "that was so much fun." how cute!

so we lay there talking FOREVER in the dark. we kiss this amazing kiss and it didn't matter i was on my period. i tried to leave but he lured me back to bed by making a little spot for me to lay. when i'm in his arms, it's so easy to knock out. he always has a tough time falling asleep so he drinks or smokes before bed but when he doesn't need to when i'm there. i'm just so comfortable when he's next to me.

we make plans for the weekend. i tell him to keep me company cuz antoinette is mad at me right now and my parents are going away for the weekend. we plan to cook for each other. i think we decide i make indian food for lunch and he's doing something fancy for dinner. i can't wait! i asked if he wanted to go to disneyland this friday cuz our pass closes for the next 2 weeks. i told him he could see tinkerbell, i can beat him at buzz lightyear, and we can kiss under the fireworks. the last one is really all i care to do.

i leave him at 4:15 this morning and he still walks me to my car. i swear i never knew i could be this happy and satisfied by a person before.

this heart of mine was broken at 8:22:00 AM
0 people tried to mend this shattered heart

Cast List

Checklist


    x keeps his promises
    x no smoking
    x no drinking
    x drinks with me
    x can drive
    x 21 and over
    x has a job
    x attractive or endearingly cute
    x makes me laugh
    x i can make him laugh
    x has a car
    x tough on the outside, a softy when it comes to me
    x no hardcore drugs
    x gets along with my friends
    x can get jealous
    x trusts me to let me go out with guy friends
    x honest, even when it hurts
    x can go shopping with me and tells me what he likes on me
    x kisses nice
    x does little sweet things
    x calls all the time
    x has a cell phone
    x smells good- either cologne sexy or has a natural comforting smell which i judge for myself
    x parents love me
    x friends love me
    x likes seafood and asian food
    x cooks for me
    x let's me be in control
    x is in control
    x not abusive
    x i can joke with
    x pokes fun at me and vice versa
    x loves my weirdness
    x wears beach clothing or GQ clothes or skater clothes
    x respect privacy
    x my best friend
    x smart
    x goes to school
    x my parents like him
    x doesn't have a significant ex who can come back
    x no girlfriend
    x can act mature but also playful with me
    x i can play-fight with like wrestling
    x likes falling asleep on the phone
    x likes my music
    x shy but opens up to me
    x will never cheat
    x won't drive me to cheat
    x flirts with me
    x can say im beautiful even when i dont have make-up on
    x let's me dress him or style his hair
    x goes to church with me
    x loves to kiss me, hold me, touch me
    x publicly displays his affection
    x sings even when he can't
    x chooses me over his friends
    x would do anything for me
    x likes coffee
    x wears shorts sometimes
    x not a workaholic
    x puts himself in my place when we fight
    x isn't all talk but no action
    x holds me when we sleep
    x can fart in front of me
    x can fart in front of him
    x joins me when im weird
    x listens to my problems, even when they are about him


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    x wears glasses
    x watches chick flicks or willing to watch foreign films
    x lives within a 20 minute radius of my house
    x takes me shopping
    x likes to read
    x good in bed
    x goes to my school
    x new in bed
    x loves coffee the way i make it
    x boxers!
    x sings in the shower
    x picks flowers for me
    x british, australian, french accents
    x watches smallville or dawsons creek
    x financially secure (RICH)
    x has no girl pals but me
    x rarely hangs with the boys and takes me when he does
    x a fireman
    x drives a truck
    x wears flip flops
    x half white? hehe

Those Days




since april.01.2002