Saturday, February 09, 2008

thank god i hold off on my insanities

Dear heart,

so last post he said he was going to call me back. but didn't. i fell asleep but woke up at 12 to find no missed call and i was thoroughly upset. i cried and pouted in bed mumbling things about being sick of it and how i'm so over him. i wake up with still some crappy feelings but did some work before heading to work since i had a lot going on that day. i end up getting a text from him: "Want to go for a walk on the beach?" i'm thinking WTF?! he decides to forget to call me last night and all of a sudden tries to be mildly romantic?! i don't get it!

i guess he didn't have work so he told me he'd take the bus to long beach and meet me there. we TRIED long beach but it smelled like sewer so we just decided to eat. we ate at the taqueria and he thought the food was good. i warned him that last time ordering the chile verde burrito made my *ss bleed. he said i must be really comfortable with him to share something like that. i'm not sure if that was necessarily a good or bad thing.

then he went with me to go site shopping. it was cute though, like we were a couple. i don't think i've had that much fun grocery shopping ever! i told him he had his "white tendencies" when he kept using the shopping cart as a skateboard-like gadget. i like switching who gets to push the cart, or pushing it together, pulling when he is riding it, and even pushing it while i ride it.

we go to starbucks and my dramatic side wished vince was there to see this. then we pick up some uniforms from the gym. he stays in the car. i take really long and i guess i "ruined" his suprise of having a wicked song ready to play for me. he says "see deep down inside i can be romantic even though it doesn't seem like it." somewhere in my heart i cross my fingers that it comes out for valentines day. i drop him off near my school and i am already supposed to be at work! we had an important site visit that day but i was effing around with james!!!

i met jim who was going to be our campaign captain. we were dressed as superheroes for that kick-off dinner. then i call james and i come over. we go to a burger place and food for less while i am STILL wearing my costume! we go back to his place and i try to explain to his mom in passing why i looked the way i did. we go upstairs to his room and watch tv. we watch 300 and smoke a little. i hate when i do that cuz i get so tired and so i woke up at 4 in the morning and drove home. i was just so lazy and i was going to not even stay that late but OF COURSE i did. either way, i had an awesome day with him.

this heart of mine was broken at 12:40:00 AM
0 people tried to mend this shattered heart

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    x keeps his promises
    x no smoking
    x no drinking
    x drinks with me
    x can drive
    x 21 and over
    x has a job
    x attractive or endearingly cute
    x makes me laugh
    x i can make him laugh
    x has a car
    x tough on the outside, a softy when it comes to me
    x no hardcore drugs
    x gets along with my friends
    x can get jealous
    x trusts me to let me go out with guy friends
    x honest, even when it hurts
    x can go shopping with me and tells me what he likes on me
    x kisses nice
    x does little sweet things
    x calls all the time
    x has a cell phone
    x smells good- either cologne sexy or has a natural comforting smell which i judge for myself
    x parents love me
    x friends love me
    x likes seafood and asian food
    x cooks for me
    x let's me be in control
    x is in control
    x not abusive
    x i can joke with
    x pokes fun at me and vice versa
    x loves my weirdness
    x wears beach clothing or GQ clothes or skater clothes
    x respect privacy
    x my best friend
    x smart
    x goes to school
    x my parents like him
    x doesn't have a significant ex who can come back
    x no girlfriend
    x can act mature but also playful with me
    x i can play-fight with like wrestling
    x likes falling asleep on the phone
    x likes my music
    x shy but opens up to me
    x will never cheat
    x won't drive me to cheat
    x flirts with me
    x can say im beautiful even when i dont have make-up on
    x let's me dress him or style his hair
    x goes to church with me
    x loves to kiss me, hold me, touch me
    x publicly displays his affection
    x sings even when he can't
    x chooses me over his friends
    x would do anything for me
    x likes coffee
    x wears shorts sometimes
    x not a workaholic
    x puts himself in my place when we fight
    x isn't all talk but no action
    x holds me when we sleep
    x can fart in front of me
    x can fart in front of him
    x joins me when im weird
    x listens to my problems, even when they are about him


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    x wears glasses
    x watches chick flicks or willing to watch foreign films
    x lives within a 20 minute radius of my house
    x takes me shopping
    x likes to read
    x good in bed
    x goes to my school
    x new in bed
    x loves coffee the way i make it
    x boxers!
    x sings in the shower
    x picks flowers for me
    x british, australian, french accents
    x watches smallville or dawsons creek
    x financially secure (RICH)
    x has no girl pals but me
    x rarely hangs with the boys and takes me when he does
    x a fireman
    x drives a truck
    x wears flip flops
    x half white? hehe

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