Wednesday, February 06, 2008
can i give him initiative by not calling?
Dear heart,
last night i want to his house after school. we watched 300. he died his hair black and i love it. i love when he looks at me when i watch tv and he brushesmy bangs to the side, away from my eyes. i love that we poke fun at each other about everything and how i can be a total weirdo with him and he can find it amusing. during the ending credits of 300, there was some chanting that i decided to mock and do weird hand movements. when i realized what i had done, i got so embarassed. it was something i'd do in front of family or antoinette who already know that i am a strange one. but he thought it was so funny. i apologize and he says, "no, that was so funny." but in an appreciative tone. then i say something about it being enya and he said he was just thinking it and made me feel so smart and witty.
it's kinda bugging me because i have been doing most of the calling or asking to hang out. he answers or calls me back but there is a lack of intitiative again. anyway i call him and he said he'd call me back cuz he was eating. i'm glad he picked up the phone but it made me wonder who he was eating with. then he calls me 15minutes later saying he was about to hop in the shower and that he wanted to tell me and that if he could call me after. i like him being considerate but how about some initiative?!
last night i want to his house after school. we watched 300. he died his hair black and i love it. i love when he looks at me when i watch tv and he brushesmy bangs to the side, away from my eyes. i love that we poke fun at each other about everything and how i can be a total weirdo with him and he can find it amusing. during the ending credits of 300, there was some chanting that i decided to mock and do weird hand movements. when i realized what i had done, i got so embarassed. it was something i'd do in front of family or antoinette who already know that i am a strange one. but he thought it was so funny. i apologize and he says, "no, that was so funny." but in an appreciative tone. then i say something about it being enya and he said he was just thinking it and made me feel so smart and witty.
it's kinda bugging me because i have been doing most of the calling or asking to hang out. he answers or calls me back but there is a lack of intitiative again. anyway i call him and he said he'd call me back cuz he was eating. i'm glad he picked up the phone but it made me wonder who he was eating with. then he calls me 15minutes later saying he was about to hop in the shower and that he wanted to tell me and that if he could call me after. i like him being considerate but how about some initiative?!
this heart of mine was broken at 10:47:00 PM
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