Sunday, February 03, 2008

best night ever and worst morning to wake up to

Dear heart,

last night we went to boomers in irvine. omg it was so fun. we get there and we do batting cages. i am actually good at fast softball pitches! he gets in trouble for not wearing a helmet. while i was hitting those softball pitches, some fat white chicks started talking to him. it got me pissed and my hands hurt from the lack of gripping the bat. then he hits it and he's really good. i felt good to know that those idiots were drooling over him and he was gonna go home with me and give me some.

then we go to the car, smoke a little, then go-kart racing. i was behind some slow ass asian person and he swears that he won the race. it was fun though. after we climb those wall things james went on the hardest level and he did really well but didn't make it to the top. some girls behind us were saying that "your boyfriend is spiderman." it secretly made me proud inside. i didn't reply back to them. i just cheer him on warning him that he can't give up or he'll never forgive himself. when he gets down, he keeps looking up longingly. i had to take him by the hand and lead him to where i was going to climb. i actually made it to the top. i didn't have too much trouble getting up there but it was still a nice rush. i love that he tells me he's proud of me.

after we go laser tagging and some stupid high school kids are being annoying in front of us. then we go laser tagging with some girls and i have to admit i was a bit jealous of the comraderie. they even took a picture of him which made me look away cuz it annoyed me a bit. then we go inside and eat mcdonalds. i think some security guard who was telling james to put on a helmet was in LOVE with him. then we play some videogames like that snowmobile ride, basketball, the bowling thing, and air hockey. when he was putting the tokens for air hockey, he randomly kissed me all passionately. we exchange our tickets for tokens. i got a glow in the dark ring and he got a parachute guy and a praying mantis. we go back to the car to smoke more before bowling. unfortunately there was a 4 person minimum per lane.

i'm sure he spent a lot of money. i think the only thing i spent money on was the baseball tokens and i only got away with that because he was in the cages when i bought it. he wasn't there to stop me. we go back to his place and i think we watch frequency. i wasn't paying much attention to it because i was super high. we do it like a million times and it felt amazing! we fell asleep and i woke up at 6:30. i should have left but we do it AGAIN and i just pass out right away. i wake up again at 9:30 and i have 4 missed calls from my mom with a threatening text. i lay around till about 11:30. we try to come up with excuses as to how i didn't come home last night. well, it was mostly me trying to throw out reasons and james being the logic, telling me they won't believe that.

there was a momentary drawback to my faith in him. hanging on his mirror is a golden heart necklace. i doubt it belongs to him and if it was his mom's, why would it be in there? could it be some other girl's? was i really foolish enough to think i was the only one?

then when i leave to go to my car, james' mom is downstairs!!! so the first time i meet her, i have a bad case of sex hair. and to think, this woman only knows me from the noises i make at night in her sons bedroom. it's been 3 months. but she says she's heard a lot of good things about me. i don't know if that's something polite to say or he really talks about me. we briefly mention the cd i made her and about good taste in music for liking norah jones. it was the worst though! i looked like death, and i'm barely meeting her after coming to her house so many damn times. it was just a bad situation. now i am hungry but don't wanna face everyone who knows i didn't come home last night.

this heart of mine was broken at 12:44:00 PM
1 people tried to mend this shattered heart

Cast List

Checklist


    x keeps his promises
    x no smoking
    x no drinking
    x drinks with me
    x can drive
    x 21 and over
    x has a job
    x attractive or endearingly cute
    x makes me laugh
    x i can make him laugh
    x has a car
    x tough on the outside, a softy when it comes to me
    x no hardcore drugs
    x gets along with my friends
    x can get jealous
    x trusts me to let me go out with guy friends
    x honest, even when it hurts
    x can go shopping with me and tells me what he likes on me
    x kisses nice
    x does little sweet things
    x calls all the time
    x has a cell phone
    x smells good- either cologne sexy or has a natural comforting smell which i judge for myself
    x parents love me
    x friends love me
    x likes seafood and asian food
    x cooks for me
    x let's me be in control
    x is in control
    x not abusive
    x i can joke with
    x pokes fun at me and vice versa
    x loves my weirdness
    x wears beach clothing or GQ clothes or skater clothes
    x respect privacy
    x my best friend
    x smart
    x goes to school
    x my parents like him
    x doesn't have a significant ex who can come back
    x no girlfriend
    x can act mature but also playful with me
    x i can play-fight with like wrestling
    x likes falling asleep on the phone
    x likes my music
    x shy but opens up to me
    x will never cheat
    x won't drive me to cheat
    x flirts with me
    x can say im beautiful even when i dont have make-up on
    x let's me dress him or style his hair
    x goes to church with me
    x loves to kiss me, hold me, touch me
    x publicly displays his affection
    x sings even when he can't
    x chooses me over his friends
    x would do anything for me
    x likes coffee
    x wears shorts sometimes
    x not a workaholic
    x puts himself in my place when we fight
    x isn't all talk but no action
    x holds me when we sleep
    x can fart in front of me
    x can fart in front of him
    x joins me when im weird
    x listens to my problems, even when they are about him


    [[ RECOMMENDED ]]
    x wears glasses
    x watches chick flicks or willing to watch foreign films
    x lives within a 20 minute radius of my house
    x takes me shopping
    x likes to read
    x good in bed
    x goes to my school
    x new in bed
    x loves coffee the way i make it
    x boxers!
    x sings in the shower
    x picks flowers for me
    x british, australian, french accents
    x watches smallville or dawsons creek
    x financially secure (RICH)
    x has no girl pals but me
    x rarely hangs with the boys and takes me when he does
    x a fireman
    x drives a truck
    x wears flip flops
    x half white? hehe

Those Days




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