Thursday, January 24, 2008

maybe they mean something

Dear heart,

here are some random specifics i was sharing with antoinette and she feels like we should just stop beating around the bush and make it official already.

i admitted that he kinda freaked out when he saw the engagement-looking ring on my finger. he said he could have sworn it was on my ring finger. i laugh it off and say something like "oh, you didn't know?!" he luaghs too and tells me that he doesn't want to know.

:/ i interpret that as our thing being casual so he doesn't care to think about my extracurricular (or extramarital) activities
:) Antoinette says he doesn't want to hear about it cuz he doesn't want to hear about me with other guys cuz it would hurt him or something.

We have this new after-sex ritual where we go hand-in-hand to the bathroom and clean ourselves and pee in front of each other. before it was us doing this individually, taking turns to go to the bathroom. somehow it became a team effort where he pees in front of me, that was fine but then he had me pee saying he wasn't going to look but continues the conversation as i pee. then it became this almost natural part of our routine after getting it on.

:) apparantly, most couples do NOT do this. she sees this much intimacy as signs of practically being married already.
:/ I know how to differentiate comfortability and physical intimacy as opposed to emotional intimacy and relatinship progression. basically, it's not that big of a deal to me.

this heart of mine was broken at 10:24:00 PM
0 people tried to mend this shattered heart

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    x keeps his promises
    x no smoking
    x no drinking
    x drinks with me
    x can drive
    x 21 and over
    x has a job
    x attractive or endearingly cute
    x makes me laugh
    x i can make him laugh
    x has a car
    x tough on the outside, a softy when it comes to me
    x no hardcore drugs
    x gets along with my friends
    x can get jealous
    x trusts me to let me go out with guy friends
    x honest, even when it hurts
    x can go shopping with me and tells me what he likes on me
    x kisses nice
    x does little sweet things
    x calls all the time
    x has a cell phone
    x smells good- either cologne sexy or has a natural comforting smell which i judge for myself
    x parents love me
    x friends love me
    x likes seafood and asian food
    x cooks for me
    x let's me be in control
    x is in control
    x not abusive
    x i can joke with
    x pokes fun at me and vice versa
    x loves my weirdness
    x wears beach clothing or GQ clothes or skater clothes
    x respect privacy
    x my best friend
    x smart
    x goes to school
    x my parents like him
    x doesn't have a significant ex who can come back
    x no girlfriend
    x can act mature but also playful with me
    x i can play-fight with like wrestling
    x likes falling asleep on the phone
    x likes my music
    x shy but opens up to me
    x will never cheat
    x won't drive me to cheat
    x flirts with me
    x can say im beautiful even when i dont have make-up on
    x let's me dress him or style his hair
    x goes to church with me
    x loves to kiss me, hold me, touch me
    x publicly displays his affection
    x sings even when he can't
    x chooses me over his friends
    x would do anything for me
    x likes coffee
    x wears shorts sometimes
    x not a workaholic
    x puts himself in my place when we fight
    x isn't all talk but no action
    x holds me when we sleep
    x can fart in front of me
    x can fart in front of him
    x joins me when im weird
    x listens to my problems, even when they are about him


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    x wears glasses
    x watches chick flicks or willing to watch foreign films
    x lives within a 20 minute radius of my house
    x takes me shopping
    x likes to read
    x good in bed
    x goes to my school
    x new in bed
    x loves coffee the way i make it
    x boxers!
    x sings in the shower
    x picks flowers for me
    x british, australian, french accents
    x watches smallville or dawsons creek
    x financially secure (RICH)
    x has no girl pals but me
    x rarely hangs with the boys and takes me when he does
    x a fireman
    x drives a truck
    x wears flip flops
    x half white? hehe

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