Wednesday, January 23, 2008
james version 2.1
Dear heart,
james has seriously become a completely different person this year. like... acting more like he's a boyfriend. he's become very demanding of my attention and time lately. we've seen each other more this month than the three months prior put together.
like monday i was giving him a choice on whether we should hang out that day or tuesday. he said he was selfish and would choose both days. when i came over before chicago, i was a bit tired and he ran to the liquor store for me and got me strawberry milk. he's always checking if i'm comfortable and catering to my every whim.
so i end up seeing him monday because i just came from chicago the day before. he confesses that he "actually" thought of me when i was in chicago. it sounded almost insulting but i knew it was a big deal that he thought of me. he said he thought he should tell me because he felt like he was keeping it from me or something.
so basically we watch movies and he cried AGAIN at million dollar baby. this is the second time he has cried in a movie with me. it's adorable but he's two up on me with the crying thing. he tells me about some relatives that die and how he felt about them and then soon realizes that he hadn't told even his friends how he felt about that. he was all "wow you know me more than my friends." i just stayed quiet cuz i really didn't know what to say. i just love how he babies me sometimes. i like that... and i love that its only sometimes. cuz there are times when i'm trying to get his attention. but not that night. everytime i tried to get up to leave, he'd pull me back to bed. we talked about religion and death and god-knows-what until almost 4, while having sex 3 times. haha. but hey he's quick so there was a lot of talking. i was so tired we just fell asleep and then i woke up again at 5 in the morning and he walks me to my car even though its raining.
and now he calls ALOT! it's nuts how much initiative he has now to give me a ring. i want to call him sometimes but i hold off a little and he ends up calling me. i love it. can't wait for what's more to come.
james has seriously become a completely different person this year. like... acting more like he's a boyfriend. he's become very demanding of my attention and time lately. we've seen each other more this month than the three months prior put together.
like monday i was giving him a choice on whether we should hang out that day or tuesday. he said he was selfish and would choose both days. when i came over before chicago, i was a bit tired and he ran to the liquor store for me and got me strawberry milk. he's always checking if i'm comfortable and catering to my every whim.
so i end up seeing him monday because i just came from chicago the day before. he confesses that he "actually" thought of me when i was in chicago. it sounded almost insulting but i knew it was a big deal that he thought of me. he said he thought he should tell me because he felt like he was keeping it from me or something.
so basically we watch movies and he cried AGAIN at million dollar baby. this is the second time he has cried in a movie with me. it's adorable but he's two up on me with the crying thing. he tells me about some relatives that die and how he felt about them and then soon realizes that he hadn't told even his friends how he felt about that. he was all "wow you know me more than my friends." i just stayed quiet cuz i really didn't know what to say. i just love how he babies me sometimes. i like that... and i love that its only sometimes. cuz there are times when i'm trying to get his attention. but not that night. everytime i tried to get up to leave, he'd pull me back to bed. we talked about religion and death and god-knows-what until almost 4, while having sex 3 times. haha. but hey he's quick so there was a lot of talking. i was so tired we just fell asleep and then i woke up again at 5 in the morning and he walks me to my car even though its raining.
and now he calls ALOT! it's nuts how much initiative he has now to give me a ring. i want to call him sometimes but i hold off a little and he ends up calling me. i love it. can't wait for what's more to come.
this heart of mine was broken at 2:04:00 AM
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