Monday, January 07, 2008

details

Dear heart,

i've been spening a lot of time with james lately but i never got to go into details of all our encounters.

so monday was when we went to the mall. i think i wrote about that already.

next time i saw him was... well i think i talked to him on wednesday and of course i feel like its the best conversation of my life. i try to get it out of him as to where my party is but he doesn't tell me. he calls me right after i eat with my coworkers and mentions that he might "kill my game" if he goes to my party. i just laugh at him. i think i ask him to do something but i guess he promised brett that he'd go to a ducks game with him. so he calls me randomly telling me that, then again to tell me he just got out of the game, and finally when he got home. this is when he is feeling down about his daughter. he can't believe that i got him to go to the mall with me. i took that as him saying "i like you that much." or maybe he was just sorry for flaking again. when he called me i was debating on whether to get a $1300 computer. he tells me that i shouldn't get it because i might be too busy and have no time for james. haha i thought that was cute. then he mentions about being a loner now and how he hasn't had a new years kiss these past 2 years. i think its been longer than that for me, which makes me even sadder. out of nowheren he mentions that he shouldn't have gone to the hockey game and should have hung out with me instead. he said that he wouldn't be so lonely. before we get off he tells me he wants to do something before saturday.

i text him thursday that i don't have work on friday and suggest either a movie or disneyland. i try calling him and his phone is completely off. i get really annoyed but then he calls me around 10 and tells me he left his phone at home and it wasn't charging. i convince him to watch juno with me and he's a little iffy about it cuz he is against chick flicks. i look up the times and he was going to make himself some food. we have a moment of indecisivenss about who calls who back and for how long. he said he'd call me after he got his sandwich but then changes it to me calling him in 7 minutes when i got the times. of course i wait a little longer. it's cute because before we hung up, he told me he was excited when i picked up the phone. i was so surprised. he was all, "is that ok?" and i thought he said, "is that gay?" and i tell him no. he's like, "no?!" we clarify things and make a date for the next day.

friday he calls me when i'm getting ready for work. he forgot what he was going to tell me. i thought he was going to cancel on our date but he didn't. i told him i had to get ready and that i would call him later. i call him when i got off work but he didn't answer. he finally calls me back when i'm at the store with my mom. i ask him to bring an umbrella because its raining and when he gives me a hard time, i realize i don't want to carry that thing around. so i told him nevermind and he actually thought i was mad at him.

this heart of mine was broken at 12:42:00 AM
0 people tried to mend this shattered heart

Cast List

Checklist


    x keeps his promises
    x no smoking
    x no drinking
    x drinks with me
    x can drive
    x 21 and over
    x has a job
    x attractive or endearingly cute
    x makes me laugh
    x i can make him laugh
    x has a car
    x tough on the outside, a softy when it comes to me
    x no hardcore drugs
    x gets along with my friends
    x can get jealous
    x trusts me to let me go out with guy friends
    x honest, even when it hurts
    x can go shopping with me and tells me what he likes on me
    x kisses nice
    x does little sweet things
    x calls all the time
    x has a cell phone
    x smells good- either cologne sexy or has a natural comforting smell which i judge for myself
    x parents love me
    x friends love me
    x likes seafood and asian food
    x cooks for me
    x let's me be in control
    x is in control
    x not abusive
    x i can joke with
    x pokes fun at me and vice versa
    x loves my weirdness
    x wears beach clothing or GQ clothes or skater clothes
    x respect privacy
    x my best friend
    x smart
    x goes to school
    x my parents like him
    x doesn't have a significant ex who can come back
    x no girlfriend
    x can act mature but also playful with me
    x i can play-fight with like wrestling
    x likes falling asleep on the phone
    x likes my music
    x shy but opens up to me
    x will never cheat
    x won't drive me to cheat
    x flirts with me
    x can say im beautiful even when i dont have make-up on
    x let's me dress him or style his hair
    x goes to church with me
    x loves to kiss me, hold me, touch me
    x publicly displays his affection
    x sings even when he can't
    x chooses me over his friends
    x would do anything for me
    x likes coffee
    x wears shorts sometimes
    x not a workaholic
    x puts himself in my place when we fight
    x isn't all talk but no action
    x holds me when we sleep
    x can fart in front of me
    x can fart in front of him
    x joins me when im weird
    x listens to my problems, even when they are about him


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    x wears glasses
    x watches chick flicks or willing to watch foreign films
    x lives within a 20 minute radius of my house
    x takes me shopping
    x likes to read
    x good in bed
    x goes to my school
    x new in bed
    x loves coffee the way i make it
    x boxers!
    x sings in the shower
    x picks flowers for me
    x british, australian, french accents
    x watches smallville or dawsons creek
    x financially secure (RICH)
    x has no girl pals but me
    x rarely hangs with the boys and takes me when he does
    x a fireman
    x drives a truck
    x wears flip flops
    x half white? hehe

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