Friday, November 02, 2007
what if i fall further than you? (reprise)
Dear heart,
i just finished watching when berger broke up with carrie via post-it. the last entry inspired me to watch it and i guess its human nature to find connections with EVERYthing but i feel like that's how it is. he's this fantastic, hilarious guy who has some issues... which spills over and eventually leaves the already nutso girl in more confusion than she began with.
the ingrid michaelson song called giving up is what brought upon my title. it's basically a song mentioning all the things that might go wrong, but the person is gonna give up worrying and thinking something else might be better because amidst it all, she's happy where she is.
i don't know the point of it all. i just wish he'd just tell me something... ANYthing. even "you make me sick. you're an ugly biatch and i can't stand you." i'd take that. i dyed my hair black on whim because of all this. i'm not regretting it yet but people's reactions are advising me otherwise. i need this color right now too. not only cuz its winter and people always look a bit silly with summer hair for this season... but because black hair makes me strong. like i'm not gonna take anyone's crap. and i really won't. so forget berger/james. i'm not gonna wait around for him. right?
i just finished watching when berger broke up with carrie via post-it. the last entry inspired me to watch it and i guess its human nature to find connections with EVERYthing but i feel like that's how it is. he's this fantastic, hilarious guy who has some issues... which spills over and eventually leaves the already nutso girl in more confusion than she began with.
the ingrid michaelson song called giving up is what brought upon my title. it's basically a song mentioning all the things that might go wrong, but the person is gonna give up worrying and thinking something else might be better because amidst it all, she's happy where she is.
i don't know the point of it all. i just wish he'd just tell me something... ANYthing. even "you make me sick. you're an ugly biatch and i can't stand you." i'd take that. i dyed my hair black on whim because of all this. i'm not regretting it yet but people's reactions are advising me otherwise. i need this color right now too. not only cuz its winter and people always look a bit silly with summer hair for this season... but because black hair makes me strong. like i'm not gonna take anyone's crap. and i really won't. so forget berger/james. i'm not gonna wait around for him. right?
this heart of mine was broken at 12:28:00 AM
0 people tried to mend this shattered heart
0 people tried to mend this shattered heart