Friday, November 02, 2007
theories or wishful thinking
Dear heart,
talking to brenda yesterday, it inspired me to make a list of possibilites as to WHY the F*** james hasn't contacted me at all:
1. he might have realized we would never work because of avery.
2. he might still feel upset about the monday night incident.
3. he got back with avery's mom.
4. he lost his phone.
5. he broke his phone.
6. he was killed in somwe tragic accident or intended murder.
7. he is injured and in the hopsital.
8. he found something better to do that night, flaked, and now finds it awkward to call me.
9. he met another girl that he likes better.
10. he got what he wanted from me and found no more reason to continue this relationship.
11. i might have given it up too soon and now he either thinks i do it all the time or is bored without the challenge.
12. he is going through some drama that he doesn't want to involve me in.
13. he realizes he hasn't liked someone like this that it is freaking him out and he's pushing me away.
14. he fell into some hardcore drugs that has him staying at dirty hotels and he's too embarassed to let anyone know about it.
15. maybe i'm too much for him too soon that he needs space.
16. he has no balls and can't tell me that he's just not that into me.
17. he got kidnapped by some hoodlums hired by avery's mom.
that's all i've got right now but i have a wild imagination so who knows what i will add to my list later. it still baffles me at how blatant this rejection is. even though i've been strong and not called/texted him, i still can't help but think about when and where exactly things went wrong. it was all going so well. it's as if he just disappeared. it's a big blow to my ego. i hate it. i just wish i had some clue as to what the f*** was going on!
talking to brenda yesterday, it inspired me to make a list of possibilites as to WHY the F*** james hasn't contacted me at all:
1. he might have realized we would never work because of avery.
2. he might still feel upset about the monday night incident.
3. he got back with avery's mom.
4. he lost his phone.
5. he broke his phone.
6. he was killed in somwe tragic accident or intended murder.
7. he is injured and in the hopsital.
8. he found something better to do that night, flaked, and now finds it awkward to call me.
9. he met another girl that he likes better.
10. he got what he wanted from me and found no more reason to continue this relationship.
11. i might have given it up too soon and now he either thinks i do it all the time or is bored without the challenge.
12. he is going through some drama that he doesn't want to involve me in.
13. he realizes he hasn't liked someone like this that it is freaking him out and he's pushing me away.
14. he fell into some hardcore drugs that has him staying at dirty hotels and he's too embarassed to let anyone know about it.
15. maybe i'm too much for him too soon that he needs space.
16. he has no balls and can't tell me that he's just not that into me.
17. he got kidnapped by some hoodlums hired by avery's mom.
that's all i've got right now but i have a wild imagination so who knows what i will add to my list later. it still baffles me at how blatant this rejection is. even though i've been strong and not called/texted him, i still can't help but think about when and where exactly things went wrong. it was all going so well. it's as if he just disappeared. it's a big blow to my ego. i hate it. i just wish i had some clue as to what the f*** was going on!
this heart of mine was broken at 9:40:00 PM
1 people tried to mend this shattered heart
1 people tried to mend this shattered heart