Monday, October 29, 2007

so we're not playing games?

Dear heart,

for some reason, i figure he's not calling because we're playing some sort of game and obviously i'm not really winning. i end up texting him something about actually cleaning my room today. he texted me back with "you me smile" which was supposed to be "you make me smile." that was a good enough excuse to call him and clarify. except we just started talking about random crap again and didn't start talking about what he meant by his text until towards the ending half of the conversation.

what i like most about him is that maybe he's an honest guy. a non-cheater? is that getting my hopes up too high? like, he is so busy playing sports and staying active that all that activity takes up his day. he'll make time to hang out with me but he has a life that has nothing to do with me and i LOVE it! it's so sexy. like i want to be a part of it even though i'm not too interested in it. weird...

anyway, i hope he can make time for me this week. i have to sound unavailable and busy so he'll want to set up some kind of an appointment with me. it seems all the days this week are blocked off: monday- class for me, tuesday- anty day, wednesday- trick or treating with anty and mel/ him with his daughter (and baby momma?), thursday- maybe but i have AU trainings, friday- class/avery, saturday- class & hanson/avery, sunday- avery. how do i get him to hang out with me on thursday and still have him believe it was his idea?! now that's a project i need to be working on...

this heart of mine was broken at 1:13:00 AM
0 people tried to mend this shattered heart

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Checklist


    x keeps his promises
    x no smoking
    x no drinking
    x drinks with me
    x can drive
    x 21 and over
    x has a job
    x attractive or endearingly cute
    x makes me laugh
    x i can make him laugh
    x has a car
    x tough on the outside, a softy when it comes to me
    x no hardcore drugs
    x gets along with my friends
    x can get jealous
    x trusts me to let me go out with guy friends
    x honest, even when it hurts
    x can go shopping with me and tells me what he likes on me
    x kisses nice
    x does little sweet things
    x calls all the time
    x has a cell phone
    x smells good- either cologne sexy or has a natural comforting smell which i judge for myself
    x parents love me
    x friends love me
    x likes seafood and asian food
    x cooks for me
    x let's me be in control
    x is in control
    x not abusive
    x i can joke with
    x pokes fun at me and vice versa
    x loves my weirdness
    x wears beach clothing or GQ clothes or skater clothes
    x respect privacy
    x my best friend
    x smart
    x goes to school
    x my parents like him
    x doesn't have a significant ex who can come back
    x no girlfriend
    x can act mature but also playful with me
    x i can play-fight with like wrestling
    x likes falling asleep on the phone
    x likes my music
    x shy but opens up to me
    x will never cheat
    x won't drive me to cheat
    x flirts with me
    x can say im beautiful even when i dont have make-up on
    x let's me dress him or style his hair
    x goes to church with me
    x loves to kiss me, hold me, touch me
    x publicly displays his affection
    x sings even when he can't
    x chooses me over his friends
    x would do anything for me
    x likes coffee
    x wears shorts sometimes
    x not a workaholic
    x puts himself in my place when we fight
    x isn't all talk but no action
    x holds me when we sleep
    x can fart in front of me
    x can fart in front of him
    x joins me when im weird
    x listens to my problems, even when they are about him


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    x wears glasses
    x watches chick flicks or willing to watch foreign films
    x lives within a 20 minute radius of my house
    x takes me shopping
    x likes to read
    x good in bed
    x goes to my school
    x new in bed
    x loves coffee the way i make it
    x boxers!
    x sings in the shower
    x picks flowers for me
    x british, australian, french accents
    x watches smallville or dawsons creek
    x financially secure (RICH)
    x has no girl pals but me
    x rarely hangs with the boys and takes me when he does
    x a fireman
    x drives a truck
    x wears flip flops
    x half white? hehe

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