Wednesday, October 24, 2007
MIA
Dear heart,
this morning after math class, eddie scared me that scary farm might be sold out so i tell james to try to buy it today. he sounded a bitpreoccupied and then i thought i might have sounded bossy/demanding when i know he has all this drama going on in his life. i texted him an apology and he replied with "stop. you're good."
so that is the last i heard from him. i texted him that since he has a new phone, if he wanted a new picture of me. NOTHING! i got off work late today at 9 and he didn't pick up when i called. maybe he's sleeping? i hope everything is ok. i won't freak out to him but... i'll freak out to you?
i guess i am not as stressed because i trust him completely. may that be a smart decision or not, he hasn't given me any reason not to. in the back of my mind, thoughts of hardcore drugs, him getting tired of me, another chick, baby momma, and drinking AGAIN plague my mind as reasons as to why he's not picking up his phone. i would call again but i figured he sees my missed call. i left a message. if he doesn't or can't call me back from that, it will be the same result if i call him- NO ANSWER! so instead of looking desperate or need, i'll let him call me.
i hope he doesn't break or lose his phone again. i guess i'll just sleep it off and wait to see if he calls/texts me tomorrow.
if he doesn't, i'll be sad but i'm sure i can come up with or make up a reason why it would never have worked out anyway. haha. i really hope he has some good excuse tomorrow. good night!
this morning after math class, eddie scared me that scary farm might be sold out so i tell james to try to buy it today. he sounded a bitpreoccupied and then i thought i might have sounded bossy/demanding when i know he has all this drama going on in his life. i texted him an apology and he replied with "stop. you're good."
so that is the last i heard from him. i texted him that since he has a new phone, if he wanted a new picture of me. NOTHING! i got off work late today at 9 and he didn't pick up when i called. maybe he's sleeping? i hope everything is ok. i won't freak out to him but... i'll freak out to you?
i guess i am not as stressed because i trust him completely. may that be a smart decision or not, he hasn't given me any reason not to. in the back of my mind, thoughts of hardcore drugs, him getting tired of me, another chick, baby momma, and drinking AGAIN plague my mind as reasons as to why he's not picking up his phone. i would call again but i figured he sees my missed call. i left a message. if he doesn't or can't call me back from that, it will be the same result if i call him- NO ANSWER! so instead of looking desperate or need, i'll let him call me.
i hope he doesn't break or lose his phone again. i guess i'll just sleep it off and wait to see if he calls/texts me tomorrow.
if he doesn't, i'll be sad but i'm sure i can come up with or make up a reason why it would never have worked out anyway. haha. i really hope he has some good excuse tomorrow. good night!
this heart of mine was broken at 11:42:00 PM
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