Monday, February 19, 2007
why does avoiding feel like the best option?
Dear heart,
i went to his apartment and was going to confront him about what he was doing last night. but then we started sitting there and i couldn't do it. we were happy and play-pushing and randomly giggling about god-knows-what. as i walk away, i kick myself in the *ss because i should have brought it up. now pieceing little clues together, i think he is moving. that's why he hasn't been home a lot because he is looking for a place in pomona. i saw it on this piece of paper tha he found a studio apartment and the contact was a 909 number.
maybe that's why he doesn't want to bring it up because that would lead to discussions about what we plan to do about that. i feel like it is just going to end up with decisions about it being best that we don't continue seeing each other because it will be poitless if we continue this charade if we know it's no going to last.
i think i'm on edge because of that. i don't know why he's acting the way he has been. why we haven't fallen asleep on the phone together anymore. i feel like he's pulling away and checking out already. i kind of wanted this to work out. or did i?
i went to his apartment and was going to confront him about what he was doing last night. but then we started sitting there and i couldn't do it. we were happy and play-pushing and randomly giggling about god-knows-what. as i walk away, i kick myself in the *ss because i should have brought it up. now pieceing little clues together, i think he is moving. that's why he hasn't been home a lot because he is looking for a place in pomona. i saw it on this piece of paper tha he found a studio apartment and the contact was a 909 number.
maybe that's why he doesn't want to bring it up because that would lead to discussions about what we plan to do about that. i feel like it is just going to end up with decisions about it being best that we don't continue seeing each other because it will be poitless if we continue this charade if we know it's no going to last.
i think i'm on edge because of that. i don't know why he's acting the way he has been. why we haven't fallen asleep on the phone together anymore. i feel like he's pulling away and checking out already. i kind of wanted this to work out. or did i?
this heart of mine was broken at 1:01:00 PM
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