Thursday, February 22, 2007

speech

Dear heart,

i don't really know how you feel about me and i already know we have some issues but i'm starting to really like you. i love spending time with you. i like laughing at the same things and at all our random little inside jokes. i enjoy myself when we're sitting around, when we're wrestling on your floor, and when we're on the phone together even if we're talking, staying on while we're doing other things, or falling asleep.

i know you must have a lot of things going on in your life that might stress you out but i can be there for you. i want to be there for you. i don't want to be one of those things that you worry about. i'm going to do my best so you'll never have to be wondering about where i am or what i'm doing. please know that i will never do anything to hurt you. i care about you and all i want to do is to make you happy.

i need you to talk to me about things. don't look at it as getting me involved; look at it as if you're letting me in. nothing that you can share with me will ever scare me away. i also want you to be more reliable. maybe answering your phone or just making a point to see me once in awhile can make all the difference.

i know we are "just friends" right now with a whole lot of benefits. i don't know if that's all you want from this whole situation but to be honest with you, i want to be with you. i'm not sure if the fact that we're not together makes us jealous because of the infinite possibilities of what the other person "can" do without the real commitment of being in a relationship, and i'm not really sure if being together will calm that down or make it worse. but you're the only person i want to be with and i want to be the only person you're with. i don't know if you're ready for something like that or if you even want to be in a relationship with me, but i'm just letting you know what i've been feeling.

if you're not, i'm fine with that. just don't act differently towards me now that you know how i feel about you.

this heart of mine was broken at 1:55:00 PM
0 people tried to mend this shattered heart

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Checklist


    x keeps his promises
    x no smoking
    x no drinking
    x drinks with me
    x can drive
    x 21 and over
    x has a job
    x attractive or endearingly cute
    x makes me laugh
    x i can make him laugh
    x has a car
    x tough on the outside, a softy when it comes to me
    x no hardcore drugs
    x gets along with my friends
    x can get jealous
    x trusts me to let me go out with guy friends
    x honest, even when it hurts
    x can go shopping with me and tells me what he likes on me
    x kisses nice
    x does little sweet things
    x calls all the time
    x has a cell phone
    x smells good- either cologne sexy or has a natural comforting smell which i judge for myself
    x parents love me
    x friends love me
    x likes seafood and asian food
    x cooks for me
    x let's me be in control
    x is in control
    x not abusive
    x i can joke with
    x pokes fun at me and vice versa
    x loves my weirdness
    x wears beach clothing or GQ clothes or skater clothes
    x respect privacy
    x my best friend
    x smart
    x goes to school
    x my parents like him
    x doesn't have a significant ex who can come back
    x no girlfriend
    x can act mature but also playful with me
    x i can play-fight with like wrestling
    x likes falling asleep on the phone
    x likes my music
    x shy but opens up to me
    x will never cheat
    x won't drive me to cheat
    x flirts with me
    x can say im beautiful even when i dont have make-up on
    x let's me dress him or style his hair
    x goes to church with me
    x loves to kiss me, hold me, touch me
    x publicly displays his affection
    x sings even when he can't
    x chooses me over his friends
    x would do anything for me
    x likes coffee
    x wears shorts sometimes
    x not a workaholic
    x puts himself in my place when we fight
    x isn't all talk but no action
    x holds me when we sleep
    x can fart in front of me
    x can fart in front of him
    x joins me when im weird
    x listens to my problems, even when they are about him


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    x wears glasses
    x watches chick flicks or willing to watch foreign films
    x lives within a 20 minute radius of my house
    x takes me shopping
    x likes to read
    x good in bed
    x goes to my school
    x new in bed
    x loves coffee the way i make it
    x boxers!
    x sings in the shower
    x picks flowers for me
    x british, australian, french accents
    x watches smallville or dawsons creek
    x financially secure (RICH)
    x has no girl pals but me
    x rarely hangs with the boys and takes me when he does
    x a fireman
    x drives a truck
    x wears flip flops
    x half white? hehe

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