Wednesday, February 21, 2007
letting someone make me lonely
Dear heart,
i always tried to live by the words of toni morrison. she said to never let anyone make you lonely. be alone because you want to be alone and that it is your choice. it sounded more profound coming from her.
but vince has been messing with me. he calls me to tell me ther's nothing wrong but that he'll call me back later and doesn't. that drives me nuts. so i left him a message last night saying that i don't know what's going on with him. even though he says there's nothing wrong, i KNOW there is. this is not typical behavior. i told him that i felt silly calling all the time.
maybe we'll break it off. i don't even care. it's better than how i feel right now or the torture of wondering what is going on. or is it? will not seeing him on purpose really be so much better than knowing there's still a possibility of seeing each other in the future? i don't even know but it is driving me crazy.
i really miss him. i feel like i need to talk to him so badly. to talk to him about everthing.
i always tried to live by the words of toni morrison. she said to never let anyone make you lonely. be alone because you want to be alone and that it is your choice. it sounded more profound coming from her.
but vince has been messing with me. he calls me to tell me ther's nothing wrong but that he'll call me back later and doesn't. that drives me nuts. so i left him a message last night saying that i don't know what's going on with him. even though he says there's nothing wrong, i KNOW there is. this is not typical behavior. i told him that i felt silly calling all the time.
maybe we'll break it off. i don't even care. it's better than how i feel right now or the torture of wondering what is going on. or is it? will not seeing him on purpose really be so much better than knowing there's still a possibility of seeing each other in the future? i don't even know but it is driving me crazy.
i really miss him. i feel like i need to talk to him so badly. to talk to him about everthing.
this heart of mine was broken at 10:32:00 AM
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