Wednesday, February 07, 2007

he's got a way with me

Dear heart,

anthony has a way of making me happy with just the simple things that he does. it was his day off today and he wanted to have lunch with me. he was gonna drive all the way to downtown long beach to do so. unfortunately, my co-workers and i were on a mission to find pirate accesories for our theme dinner tomorrow.

i was supposed to see him after work but i really felt like spending some time with vince because i knew it was one of those days where he got off early. so i talked to anthony on the phone and he didn't sound up to going out either which was perfect. we postpone his lunch offer for tomorrow. he's gonna drive to my work and pick me up and take me to that excellent mexican food place that made my *ss bleed. haha

i'm at vince's and he looks like he had a bad day. i give him a massage and we watch an episode of arrested development. we do it and i leave. i watch american idol with my family and then prepare my food for tomorrow.

i check myspace and i find an angry comment from antoinette. she wanted to go to club bang next saturday but i'm going to that hockey game with anthony. i feel frustrated because usually when i have a problem i tell her and now i couldn't. oddly enough the first person i talk to is anthony. i tell him about it and he thought i didn't want to go anymore. he then informs me that he is sleeping at his friend's house. but he will definitely make it to lunch tomorrow. i tell him about my intestinal adventures with a chile verde burrito and i remembered how much he liked my stories. he is at some girls house but is just talking to me like what she thinks doesn't matter- which i'm sure it really doesn't. we hang up and i don't feel threatened at all.

well... maybe a little because i proceed to text him with "are you gonna wang bang your friend? i don't care if you are. i was just wondering." he calls me back telling me that she is ugly to him. i hear her in the background and i guess she wants to talk to me. it was roxy but she assures me that they are friends and if he's sleeping over, he's gonna sleep outside (her room). she told me she met me at the movies and she was apologizing for looking ugly that day and i was saying she was pretty.

anthony gets back on the phone and asks me if i'm wang banging some other guys and i had to lie. what could i really tell him? yes? i ask him back and he says no. he tells me that he just asked because i did. and then i hear roxy say in the background that he's asking because he wants me all to himself. the funny thing was he didn't argue with it or disagree. he didn't even get flustered. he confirms lunch with me tomorrow and says goodnight. i repeat that i do NOT care but i was just wondering. i don't know who i was trying to fool because i wasn't too convincing.

vince called me right now. he was just telling me good night. we exchanged a few of our inside jokes and went on our merry ways. will a half-boyfriend and an almost relationship equal to a zero valentine again this year? i sure hope not. vince doesn't care enough about me to do something for me for valentines day. i'm sure that day doesn't even register in the mind of anthony. so i guess i must hide out at home while i watch my happily married parents be in love and watch american idol...

this heart of mine was broken at 11:51:00 PM
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Checklist


    x keeps his promises
    x no smoking
    x no drinking
    x drinks with me
    x can drive
    x 21 and over
    x has a job
    x attractive or endearingly cute
    x makes me laugh
    x i can make him laugh
    x has a car
    x tough on the outside, a softy when it comes to me
    x no hardcore drugs
    x gets along with my friends
    x can get jealous
    x trusts me to let me go out with guy friends
    x honest, even when it hurts
    x can go shopping with me and tells me what he likes on me
    x kisses nice
    x does little sweet things
    x calls all the time
    x has a cell phone
    x smells good- either cologne sexy or has a natural comforting smell which i judge for myself
    x parents love me
    x friends love me
    x likes seafood and asian food
    x cooks for me
    x let's me be in control
    x is in control
    x not abusive
    x i can joke with
    x pokes fun at me and vice versa
    x loves my weirdness
    x wears beach clothing or GQ clothes or skater clothes
    x respect privacy
    x my best friend
    x smart
    x goes to school
    x my parents like him
    x doesn't have a significant ex who can come back
    x no girlfriend
    x can act mature but also playful with me
    x i can play-fight with like wrestling
    x likes falling asleep on the phone
    x likes my music
    x shy but opens up to me
    x will never cheat
    x won't drive me to cheat
    x flirts with me
    x can say im beautiful even when i dont have make-up on
    x let's me dress him or style his hair
    x goes to church with me
    x loves to kiss me, hold me, touch me
    x publicly displays his affection
    x sings even when he can't
    x chooses me over his friends
    x would do anything for me
    x likes coffee
    x wears shorts sometimes
    x not a workaholic
    x puts himself in my place when we fight
    x isn't all talk but no action
    x holds me when we sleep
    x can fart in front of me
    x can fart in front of him
    x joins me when im weird
    x listens to my problems, even when they are about him


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    x wears glasses
    x watches chick flicks or willing to watch foreign films
    x lives within a 20 minute radius of my house
    x takes me shopping
    x likes to read
    x good in bed
    x goes to my school
    x new in bed
    x loves coffee the way i make it
    x boxers!
    x sings in the shower
    x picks flowers for me
    x british, australian, french accents
    x watches smallville or dawsons creek
    x financially secure (RICH)
    x has no girl pals but me
    x rarely hangs with the boys and takes me when he does
    x a fireman
    x drives a truck
    x wears flip flops
    x half white? hehe

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