Friday, February 02, 2007
bad decision
Dear heart,
that last letter.... yeah.... i should NOT have sent it! from there, it all went downhill. now we have stopped seeing each other and it almost sucks if i still had the capacity to give a sh*t. ok, so i do. a little.
he called me right now but i wasn't in my office. i haven't talked to him since wednesday night when he ended things. my tummy is doing sommersaults and i don't think that's healthy. ok so he called again and he said to call him after work. what does that mean? does he want to see me? he can't just DO that. what does he think? or maybe its closure. i still need my camera and charger back. i am supposed to eat dinner with eddie after work.
what if he wants to see me? do i really want to see him right now? i just ate chicken lunch meat and my breath is kicking. not that i expect any mouth contact. i do want to have sex with him. he's like the best i've ever had. but i don't want him to think its that easy. wednesday night hurt. it's funny because even though you think you're over feelings and all that emotion crap- you get hurt to remind you that you're still human. sometimes i forget that i am. i feel like i'm above it all.
that last letter.... yeah.... i should NOT have sent it! from there, it all went downhill. now we have stopped seeing each other and it almost sucks if i still had the capacity to give a sh*t. ok, so i do. a little.
he called me right now but i wasn't in my office. i haven't talked to him since wednesday night when he ended things. my tummy is doing sommersaults and i don't think that's healthy. ok so he called again and he said to call him after work. what does that mean? does he want to see me? he can't just DO that. what does he think? or maybe its closure. i still need my camera and charger back. i am supposed to eat dinner with eddie after work.
what if he wants to see me? do i really want to see him right now? i just ate chicken lunch meat and my breath is kicking. not that i expect any mouth contact. i do want to have sex with him. he's like the best i've ever had. but i don't want him to think its that easy. wednesday night hurt. it's funny because even though you think you're over feelings and all that emotion crap- you get hurt to remind you that you're still human. sometimes i forget that i am. i feel like i'm above it all.
this heart of mine was broken at 9:33:00 AM
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