Tuesday, January 16, 2007

starting work, getting worked, and working out

Dear heart,

i started work yesterday. i forgot how much i missed it. i was at a point where i was so burnt out that i was ready for a vacation. i finally got the break i needed when i got into my accident. a nice way of looking at it.

i've been seeing vince a whole lot. last thursday, we go drink together with his friend jordie. we get so drunk and we're all dancing at this belmont station in long beach. then we eat at this mexican restaurant brite spot or something. i can tell that we probably won't get along if i ever get drunk in the future. i'm ridiculously flirty when i'm drunk and he's ridiculously jealous when he is. not a good mix. i swear when we were in that restaurant- i was making eyes at some guy. good thing he didn't see. when i passed by that guy, he said something to me and vince saw. he was talking sh*t. then suddenly i hear something like "you don't love me. you don't love me." i just remember rolling my eyes, but my head low enough near my food that he didn't see me.

he drives me home and when he parks near my house, we start doing it. his windows are not tilted. i don't think we were even trying to be discreet because we were so drunk. we move into my room and continue. it was like 4:30 in the morning. we pass out right after and i had to be up at 8 because my mom and i had to pick up my xrays to take to my doctor's appointment at 9:30 in lynwood. damn i was so dizzy when i woke up. we tried another crack at getting it on but i was so dehydrated that we couldn't.

i was really excited because i thought i was going to be able to drive but my parents always pull the plug on me last minute. i was all ready to go to some lounge in long beach with some girl friends but they were acting all stupid. it made me so mad i cried and ruined my make-up. i was so pissed. i just cried to vince and he came over and watched arrested development. i freaking love that show now. it totally cheered me up from the damper my parents put on my night. we didn't even do anything. just laughed together and made new inside jokes to say to each other.

then sunday was my day with anthony. it's his only day off. but i already made plans with vince. i actually ended up choosing vince over anthony. it made me feel like crap. he kept calling and usually then ringtone that made me smile, made me break a sweat. we watched more arrested development. i think we're both obsessed with that show. now everytime we see each other we say things like "i'm the LAST cop..." or "douche chill." we just crack up. it never gets old. i wonder if it'll get old. i fall asleep there and end up waking him at 5 in the morning to take me home. then i had my first day of work.

i have decided to start working out again. justin and anthony have already asked me when was the last time i went to the gym. so after work todat, i'm going to continue my workout regime once again. i'm aiming to lose 10 lbs and i'll feel perfect. i'm doing the crazy diet thing again. *crosses fingers* hope i reach my goal.

this heart of mine was broken at 4:09:00 PM
0 people tried to mend this shattered heart

Cast List

Checklist


    x keeps his promises
    x no smoking
    x no drinking
    x drinks with me
    x can drive
    x 21 and over
    x has a job
    x attractive or endearingly cute
    x makes me laugh
    x i can make him laugh
    x has a car
    x tough on the outside, a softy when it comes to me
    x no hardcore drugs
    x gets along with my friends
    x can get jealous
    x trusts me to let me go out with guy friends
    x honest, even when it hurts
    x can go shopping with me and tells me what he likes on me
    x kisses nice
    x does little sweet things
    x calls all the time
    x has a cell phone
    x smells good- either cologne sexy or has a natural comforting smell which i judge for myself
    x parents love me
    x friends love me
    x likes seafood and asian food
    x cooks for me
    x let's me be in control
    x is in control
    x not abusive
    x i can joke with
    x pokes fun at me and vice versa
    x loves my weirdness
    x wears beach clothing or GQ clothes or skater clothes
    x respect privacy
    x my best friend
    x smart
    x goes to school
    x my parents like him
    x doesn't have a significant ex who can come back
    x no girlfriend
    x can act mature but also playful with me
    x i can play-fight with like wrestling
    x likes falling asleep on the phone
    x likes my music
    x shy but opens up to me
    x will never cheat
    x won't drive me to cheat
    x flirts with me
    x can say im beautiful even when i dont have make-up on
    x let's me dress him or style his hair
    x goes to church with me
    x loves to kiss me, hold me, touch me
    x publicly displays his affection
    x sings even when he can't
    x chooses me over his friends
    x would do anything for me
    x likes coffee
    x wears shorts sometimes
    x not a workaholic
    x puts himself in my place when we fight
    x isn't all talk but no action
    x holds me when we sleep
    x can fart in front of me
    x can fart in front of him
    x joins me when im weird
    x listens to my problems, even when they are about him


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    x wears glasses
    x watches chick flicks or willing to watch foreign films
    x lives within a 20 minute radius of my house
    x takes me shopping
    x likes to read
    x good in bed
    x goes to my school
    x new in bed
    x loves coffee the way i make it
    x boxers!
    x sings in the shower
    x picks flowers for me
    x british, australian, french accents
    x watches smallville or dawsons creek
    x financially secure (RICH)
    x has no girl pals but me
    x rarely hangs with the boys and takes me when he does
    x a fireman
    x drives a truck
    x wears flip flops
    x half white? hehe

Those Days




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