Tuesday, January 16, 2007
collision
Dear heart,
as you know, i am a paranoid, jealous crazy-person. may it be from past experiences or just the type of person i am, i can't help being that way when i start liking someone. if i'm not really into someone i'm dating, then why get jealous? ok maybe i can act a little possessive just for natural reasons but really CARE in that way where you have psychotic hypotheses on what they could possibly be doing to hurt you. i feel like i'm starting to get there with vince. i'm liking him to the point where it could hurt me if he left. for some reason, when i think of vince i can only compare him to jack berger from sex and the city. he seems like this insecure guy that has some baggage who seems worth taking a chance with because you two get along so well when really in the end it will just end up being this pointless thing that you allowed yourself to hurt you.
the fact that he is a crazy-person too makes it all the more difficult to get along with him. brenda and i discussed this about being with normal people because they never suspect you of doing the crazy things that you do because they can't fathom it. now if two crazies are put together, they are in sync but not in a good way. they will be fully aware of the psychotic activities and thoughts of the other person and that is NEVER a good thing. besides his lunacism, he has MORE crap that makes me crazier. he has a bad habit of not picking up his phone. i effin hate that SO damn much- you don't even know! and he constantly does it. sometimes i just want to end it because he's not answering his phone but then again he does the same crap. which is funny because when he does it- i think he's nuts! but then when i keep getting his voicemail, my messages become more crazed.
i just feel like vince and i meshing is a really bad idea full of drama and suspicion. so why am i still here?
as you know, i am a paranoid, jealous crazy-person. may it be from past experiences or just the type of person i am, i can't help being that way when i start liking someone. if i'm not really into someone i'm dating, then why get jealous? ok maybe i can act a little possessive just for natural reasons but really CARE in that way where you have psychotic hypotheses on what they could possibly be doing to hurt you. i feel like i'm starting to get there with vince. i'm liking him to the point where it could hurt me if he left. for some reason, when i think of vince i can only compare him to jack berger from sex and the city. he seems like this insecure guy that has some baggage who seems worth taking a chance with because you two get along so well when really in the end it will just end up being this pointless thing that you allowed yourself to hurt you.
the fact that he is a crazy-person too makes it all the more difficult to get along with him. brenda and i discussed this about being with normal people because they never suspect you of doing the crazy things that you do because they can't fathom it. now if two crazies are put together, they are in sync but not in a good way. they will be fully aware of the psychotic activities and thoughts of the other person and that is NEVER a good thing. besides his lunacism, he has MORE crap that makes me crazier. he has a bad habit of not picking up his phone. i effin hate that SO damn much- you don't even know! and he constantly does it. sometimes i just want to end it because he's not answering his phone but then again he does the same crap. which is funny because when he does it- i think he's nuts! but then when i keep getting his voicemail, my messages become more crazed.
i just feel like vince and i meshing is a really bad idea full of drama and suspicion. so why am i still here?
this heart of mine was broken at 5:52:00 PM
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