Sunday, January 07, 2007

but you already knew that

Dear heart,

vince is crazy! but, hence the title. i spent the day with anthony. he picked me up and i kept him company as he did his laundry. we go back to his place and watch one of the movies i brought with me. out of office space, poolhall junkies, and a foreign film malena- he chooses the foreign film. i was pleasantly surprised. but before we watch it, we do it. he warns me that it's been awhile so he might "nut fast." i asked him, "when was the last time we did it?" he kept answering "with you." but i meant when that actually was... and it was christmas eve. it HAS been awhile. i never really noticed its absence because i was too busy with vince. sex wasn't bad either. h

after we watch the movie and he actually enjoys it. my phone went off and he wanted me to turn it off so i put it on silent. henry comes home later. we watch office space with him. anthony gets hungry and we leave real quick to get some food. when i get back, i left my phone on the couch. i guess vince calls and i miss it and he's trippin! he says something about thinking i was with guy friends and that he thinks i am sleeping with other people besides him and that he wanted me to call him for "closure" or something. OMG! he is crazy!

i try to play it off like i'm at the movies with brenda and that i haven't heard his message yet. but he's all pissed. he texted me "i'll be busy, late." i call him when i got home and i was yelling trying to defend myself. but he acts like i'm over-reacting and we talk about it. we came to realize how we are both extremely paranoid. and this is why i think things with vince will never work out. two people with that much crazy in them can only drive each other crazy and eventually cause some kind of major explosion or something.

this heart of mine was broken at 11:32:00 PM
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    x keeps his promises
    x no smoking
    x no drinking
    x drinks with me
    x can drive
    x 21 and over
    x has a job
    x attractive or endearingly cute
    x makes me laugh
    x i can make him laugh
    x has a car
    x tough on the outside, a softy when it comes to me
    x no hardcore drugs
    x gets along with my friends
    x can get jealous
    x trusts me to let me go out with guy friends
    x honest, even when it hurts
    x can go shopping with me and tells me what he likes on me
    x kisses nice
    x does little sweet things
    x calls all the time
    x has a cell phone
    x smells good- either cologne sexy or has a natural comforting smell which i judge for myself
    x parents love me
    x friends love me
    x likes seafood and asian food
    x cooks for me
    x let's me be in control
    x is in control
    x not abusive
    x i can joke with
    x pokes fun at me and vice versa
    x loves my weirdness
    x wears beach clothing or GQ clothes or skater clothes
    x respect privacy
    x my best friend
    x smart
    x goes to school
    x my parents like him
    x doesn't have a significant ex who can come back
    x no girlfriend
    x can act mature but also playful with me
    x i can play-fight with like wrestling
    x likes falling asleep on the phone
    x likes my music
    x shy but opens up to me
    x will never cheat
    x won't drive me to cheat
    x flirts with me
    x can say im beautiful even when i dont have make-up on
    x let's me dress him or style his hair
    x goes to church with me
    x loves to kiss me, hold me, touch me
    x publicly displays his affection
    x sings even when he can't
    x chooses me over his friends
    x would do anything for me
    x likes coffee
    x wears shorts sometimes
    x not a workaholic
    x puts himself in my place when we fight
    x isn't all talk but no action
    x holds me when we sleep
    x can fart in front of me
    x can fart in front of him
    x joins me when im weird
    x listens to my problems, even when they are about him


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    x wears glasses
    x watches chick flicks or willing to watch foreign films
    x lives within a 20 minute radius of my house
    x takes me shopping
    x likes to read
    x good in bed
    x goes to my school
    x new in bed
    x loves coffee the way i make it
    x boxers!
    x sings in the shower
    x picks flowers for me
    x british, australian, french accents
    x watches smallville or dawsons creek
    x financially secure (RICH)
    x has no girl pals but me
    x rarely hangs with the boys and takes me when he does
    x a fireman
    x drives a truck
    x wears flip flops
    x half white? hehe

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