Wednesday, December 27, 2006

SnM

Dear heart,

i forgot to mention that vince came over last night. for some reason, he brings out the wild, violent side of me. we're pretty rough and i love it! sex with him takes my damn breath away. but sometimes you get so into it that you don't feel how much it hurts until afterwards.

so this morning, my hips are all scratched up and bruised. it seriously hurts so bad because it's all raw right there. we did it again though when we both woke up. the crazy thing is i think he made me bleed. like, i've been done with my period for days now and there was a hint of blood afterwards. maybe we did it too hard or he went in too deep? i shudder just thinking about it. but at the time, it's amazing and now... it hurts to even put underwear on. dammit!

oh, but i talked to nathan this morning. OMG! he is awesome. i think his family is rich because he lives in uptown whittier or "avocado heights" where he has acres of land or something about his horses. he is so smart too! he was talking to me about making bombs and half the things he said went over my head, but i love a man who has a passion and knows his stuff. then i ask him if he likes video games and he asked me if i did and to please say yes, and i say "heck yes!" and he's all "i love you!" it was funny. so maybe i'm going to see him later tonight.

this heart of mine was broken at 2:01:00 PM
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    x keeps his promises
    x no smoking
    x no drinking
    x drinks with me
    x can drive
    x 21 and over
    x has a job
    x attractive or endearingly cute
    x makes me laugh
    x i can make him laugh
    x has a car
    x tough on the outside, a softy when it comes to me
    x no hardcore drugs
    x gets along with my friends
    x can get jealous
    x trusts me to let me go out with guy friends
    x honest, even when it hurts
    x can go shopping with me and tells me what he likes on me
    x kisses nice
    x does little sweet things
    x calls all the time
    x has a cell phone
    x smells good- either cologne sexy or has a natural comforting smell which i judge for myself
    x parents love me
    x friends love me
    x likes seafood and asian food
    x cooks for me
    x let's me be in control
    x is in control
    x not abusive
    x i can joke with
    x pokes fun at me and vice versa
    x loves my weirdness
    x wears beach clothing or GQ clothes or skater clothes
    x respect privacy
    x my best friend
    x smart
    x goes to school
    x my parents like him
    x doesn't have a significant ex who can come back
    x no girlfriend
    x can act mature but also playful with me
    x i can play-fight with like wrestling
    x likes falling asleep on the phone
    x likes my music
    x shy but opens up to me
    x will never cheat
    x won't drive me to cheat
    x flirts with me
    x can say im beautiful even when i dont have make-up on
    x let's me dress him or style his hair
    x goes to church with me
    x loves to kiss me, hold me, touch me
    x publicly displays his affection
    x sings even when he can't
    x chooses me over his friends
    x would do anything for me
    x likes coffee
    x wears shorts sometimes
    x not a workaholic
    x puts himself in my place when we fight
    x isn't all talk but no action
    x holds me when we sleep
    x can fart in front of me
    x can fart in front of him
    x joins me when im weird
    x listens to my problems, even when they are about him


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    x wears glasses
    x watches chick flicks or willing to watch foreign films
    x lives within a 20 minute radius of my house
    x takes me shopping
    x likes to read
    x good in bed
    x goes to my school
    x new in bed
    x loves coffee the way i make it
    x boxers!
    x sings in the shower
    x picks flowers for me
    x british, australian, french accents
    x watches smallville or dawsons creek
    x financially secure (RICH)
    x has no girl pals but me
    x rarely hangs with the boys and takes me when he does
    x a fireman
    x drives a truck
    x wears flip flops
    x half white? hehe

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