Monday, December 04, 2006
new and improved anthony
Dear heart,
how great are conversations with him now! we're actually flirty and stuff over the phone and i feel comfortable calling him whenever rather than trying to give myself these rules and limits on how often i should be talking to this guy. then one of the times i call him, he asked me if i wanted to talk. i was confused. about what? he's like "about your day." so i just started talking about it and asked him about his. the weird thing is that he told me before that he HATES talking on the phone. like he said just tell him what you need to say or what he needs to know and then hang up. but he actually wanted to TALK! it kinda gave me a momentary shock that i had to recover from. but we just talked for a bit. he was really interested in hearing about my day, but then he is always a good listener about EVERYthing that i say. i really like that about him.
dago was kinda pissing me off because he decided to go into work on his day off. uh, i'm sorry i'm not INTO that workaholic crap! when michael was a sales person for L.A. Fitness and i'm sorry, the whole work priority over you thing was SO not worth it. i need attention and i need someone reliable. he says sometimes he has to get off at 10 and ends up leaving work at 12. uh... i'm not into that. i'd go crazy from my already present trust issues. maybe i need to try to suck it up but really- unanswered phone calls piss me off. anthony always answers his phone. dago might be "at work" but i get all suspicious. is he hitting on someone like when he hit on me? DAMN! look at me. already acting crazy with dago. i'm over acting crazy with anthony. things with him are chill and perfect right now. gosh.
i really have more confidence in this relationship. his newfound niceness and almost boyfriend-like qualities have given me some power to just ask and say things that i want. i told him that i wanted to come over after work just to show him my outfit and make out with him, but that i couldn't stay long. usually i would ask him if he wanted to and have so much internal conflict if i should ask him or not, and if that was looking too attached. now i have booked him for tomorrow and friday for comedy shows. that's like future planning. that's what people in "HALF RELATIONSHIPS" do. haha! i love how things are with him. who knew... who knew!
how great are conversations with him now! we're actually flirty and stuff over the phone and i feel comfortable calling him whenever rather than trying to give myself these rules and limits on how often i should be talking to this guy. then one of the times i call him, he asked me if i wanted to talk. i was confused. about what? he's like "about your day." so i just started talking about it and asked him about his. the weird thing is that he told me before that he HATES talking on the phone. like he said just tell him what you need to say or what he needs to know and then hang up. but he actually wanted to TALK! it kinda gave me a momentary shock that i had to recover from. but we just talked for a bit. he was really interested in hearing about my day, but then he is always a good listener about EVERYthing that i say. i really like that about him.
dago was kinda pissing me off because he decided to go into work on his day off. uh, i'm sorry i'm not INTO that workaholic crap! when michael was a sales person for L.A. Fitness and i'm sorry, the whole work priority over you thing was SO not worth it. i need attention and i need someone reliable. he says sometimes he has to get off at 10 and ends up leaving work at 12. uh... i'm not into that. i'd go crazy from my already present trust issues. maybe i need to try to suck it up but really- unanswered phone calls piss me off. anthony always answers his phone. dago might be "at work" but i get all suspicious. is he hitting on someone like when he hit on me? DAMN! look at me. already acting crazy with dago. i'm over acting crazy with anthony. things with him are chill and perfect right now. gosh.
i really have more confidence in this relationship. his newfound niceness and almost boyfriend-like qualities have given me some power to just ask and say things that i want. i told him that i wanted to come over after work just to show him my outfit and make out with him, but that i couldn't stay long. usually i would ask him if he wanted to and have so much internal conflict if i should ask him or not, and if that was looking too attached. now i have booked him for tomorrow and friday for comedy shows. that's like future planning. that's what people in "HALF RELATIONSHIPS" do. haha! i love how things are with him. who knew... who knew!
this heart of mine was broken at 3:08:00 PM
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