Wednesday, December 20, 2006
i hope no one kills kenny
Dear heart,
i am thankful for my new anthony informant, kenny.
current information gathered:
kenny: i know wang can get else where
kenny: but i know he likes u
kenny: he just has a wall
kenny: no one can get by
more...
jo: so did he ever SAY he liked me or.. was it just an observation
kenny: all i remember was that
kenny: he was really feeling u
kenny: and u wwere his type
kenny: thats what he told me
kenny: and that u were great
kenny: u payd for his taco bell
kenny: and he likes hanging iwth u
and i realized something- just because things aren't being said doesn't mean they aren't being felt. i have all these feelings for anthony that i might never tell him but they are there. and maybe he doesn't say he likes hanging out with me but doesn't mean he doesn't think it or feel it.
the thing that bothers me is that he was with maria last night. why?! and then today i checked his comments and i guess he comments some chick about going christmas shopping with him and his friends. why doesn't he ask me? because i'm injured? because he's shopping for me too? or he just wants an excuse to hang out with these stupid b*tches? explain that to me. i wonder if he bought her food last night. i wonder what his fascination with her could be. i wonder if she's a backstabbing, lying whore who secretly wants to hook up with him just because. and he can't say no! what is he going to say? there is no real excuse to turn anyone down. he doesn't have a girlfriend and saying that he has a half-girlfriend will just sound completely absurd!
maybe that half relationship titles are for us. like a secret we both have but no one can know about it. vince sure as hell doesn't think i have a half-relationship or will he ever know that. how do you really explain that to people?! vince said we were dating yesterday and it kind of freaked me out. i think i have some commitment phobias like anthony but not when it comes to him. i talked to vince until 2 in the morning. he has such a sexy voice!
anyway, i need to finish my project or i'm going to fail my class. worry about anthony later. i think i'm going to hang out with him today. but who knows.
i am thankful for my new anthony informant, kenny.
current information gathered:
kenny: i know wang can get else where
kenny: but i know he likes u
kenny: he just has a wall
kenny: no one can get by
more...
jo: so did he ever SAY he liked me or.. was it just an observation
kenny: all i remember was that
kenny: he was really feeling u
kenny: and u wwere his type
kenny: thats what he told me
kenny: and that u were great
kenny: u payd for his taco bell
kenny: and he likes hanging iwth u
and i realized something- just because things aren't being said doesn't mean they aren't being felt. i have all these feelings for anthony that i might never tell him but they are there. and maybe he doesn't say he likes hanging out with me but doesn't mean he doesn't think it or feel it.
the thing that bothers me is that he was with maria last night. why?! and then today i checked his comments and i guess he comments some chick about going christmas shopping with him and his friends. why doesn't he ask me? because i'm injured? because he's shopping for me too? or he just wants an excuse to hang out with these stupid b*tches? explain that to me. i wonder if he bought her food last night. i wonder what his fascination with her could be. i wonder if she's a backstabbing, lying whore who secretly wants to hook up with him just because. and he can't say no! what is he going to say? there is no real excuse to turn anyone down. he doesn't have a girlfriend and saying that he has a half-girlfriend will just sound completely absurd!
maybe that half relationship titles are for us. like a secret we both have but no one can know about it. vince sure as hell doesn't think i have a half-relationship or will he ever know that. how do you really explain that to people?! vince said we were dating yesterday and it kind of freaked me out. i think i have some commitment phobias like anthony but not when it comes to him. i talked to vince until 2 in the morning. he has such a sexy voice!
anyway, i need to finish my project or i'm going to fail my class. worry about anthony later. i think i'm going to hang out with him today. but who knows.
this heart of mine was broken at 12:47:00 PM
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